Tuesday, August 08, 2006

me

The last two days didn't go very well. I felt like I was in kind of a funk and I didn't have much patience or love for the people around me. I had two days at home inbetween 4 weeks of being gone and so I was really excited about that time. I had been thinking about the things that I wanted to do, the people I wanted to see and the time I would spend just being by myself and it was just this morning as I was reading, thinking, and praying that I realized that I was in a funk because all I had thought about for the past couple of days was what I wanted. I had wasted those days on myself. I'm sorry for those of you who had to be be around me and if you have a minute please pray that I'll be able to stay focused on others because I'm slowly finding that to be a much more fulfilling way to live, but all too often I don't live that way.

Yours,
DJ

30 comments:

Sarah Barlow said...

Ahh!! I totally know what your talking about! It's so easy to become selfish and just want what I want when I want it...
I was just praying yesterday for God to help me in this area too because it's waaay to easy to slip into just thinking about yourself when you feel like you've given so much...BUT thank God for his help no matter what!
I think the times that we feel like we have given enough is the time we need to give more than ever! :)
I'm praying for you:)

Jasmine said...

May your funk be the beginning of selflessness and love...although I'd have to say you're as kind and genuine as they come :)
Praying for you...

Sarah Renée said...

35 Direct me in the path of your commands,
for there I find delight.

36 Turn my heart toward your statutes
and not toward selfish gain.

37 Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
preserve my life according to your word.
~Psalm 119:35-37

I understand entirely! That's been so much of my recent struggle to, but God is faithful and the minute we let go He takes hold of us and brings us back to Him.
You are definitely in my prayers, DJ :)

Jim Davis Hicks said...

While your buys being selfish, I'm busy becoming a show it addict!!!

Thanks for not being selfish with this incredible tool!!!!!!

AMAZING!

God bless DJ.

You still need to hear this dream I had about you. It's so connected to this stuff. I think it will really minister to you.

Liana said...

Ditto what o-wise Jazzy says :)

Natalie said...

You still ROCK!!


:)

Alison Bynum said...

must have been the makeup
;o)

Daniel J. Watkins Photography said...

You just need some kids then you'll forget what the word selfish ever meant!

allan z. said...

Your in my prayers Rev. DJ

-allan :)

Jim Davis Hicks said...

DJ Watkins,

That is unbelievably, incredibly, almost infallibly correct. O that I had the time to feel selfish. But then I'd probably have to lose my kids! I love them, but I think God gave them to me to kill me!!!! :)

amber said...

ill be sure to keep you on my prayer list. this too shall pass :)

Tim Halberg said...

Awww man... you're a freaking stud!!! I was stoked to spend a few hours with you while you were in town and felt VERY priveledge to do so! I'll definitely be praying for you man! I know you've got a TON going on! It's hard to catch alone time in there.

Holritz Photography said...

love ya.

a

amynave said...

Prayed for you today as well:)

Your doing such an amazing job forsure. Man I'm such a people person but I think I would be in a bigger funk then you if I was in your spot:) LOL. I too was struggling with this a couple of days ago and God did some amazing things in my life:) I forgot to tell you about it, oh well next time:)

Talk to you later

amynave said...

Oh ya,
Just put your bug glasses on and then look in the mirror:) I'm sure you'll feel better:) hahahahahhaha

Jeff Barron said...

I think sometimes God knows we need some ME time. Although I dont know you very well, you seem to be a really selfless guy. Among all your busyness, you took the time to e-mail me back and Im sure you get thousands of e-mails. That was really selfless. Keep on being awesome and from what Ive read here, you will be getting a lot of prayer. Good Luck man!

fergee said...

DJ:
You in a Funk Mood? I find that hard to believe??? You are being way to hard on yourself!

Just think..next year around this same time you'll be Gary Fongs Flower Girl! LOL!!!

But seriously, I just said a prayer for you and I will continue as you run yourself all over the map for Picky-Tage and also pray for you when you shoot your weddings this month. Jesus is with you always my brother, turn to him and ask him to take your stress away!
POOF...Done! Praise God!!!

kristy r behrs said...

It was awesome to see you today, and you were very encouraging, and seemed in good spirits! Thanks for all your time spent with us, thanks for being the laid back totally open person you are - you gave us knowledge and a piece of your mind, which can never have a value placed on it. I pray your soul is refreshed now, and that He gives you precious invaluable tools for your own life and journey.

Rockie said...

Hey david,

I totally understand my man. I know that when I get that way, it is usually due to the fact that I have not spent time looking into Jesus' face and just resting and getting recharged.
I just wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you and asking that God you bring you in to a place of rest (ps.23) and a place of solitude where you can get refreshed and here the sweet voice of your heavenly father saying... "come and rest my son.You deserve a hug."

I am praying for you.

Rockie

Shannon Rice said...

hang in there...you have a lot of people praying for you! :) just smile and realize how amazing your life is and what wonderful things you do for people. you touch people's lives everyday and you probably don't even realize it.

dj, you do great things! don't be too hard on yourself!

OpenSourcePhoto said...

Thanks everyone! All your support and encouragement mean the world to me and I've been so blessed getting to know each and every one of you!

Antonio Saucedo said...

I think you are so blessed and God wants that you know, that a lot of people are praying for you.
I admire you DJ, and all you do it inspires to me.
Thanks.

Tit. 2:11

From México City

Frank DiMeo said...

Hey Bud, hope you are feeling better. I finally got around to doing a NYC post on my blog and said a few things about you. Please check it out, I know I speak for all of us and think it will make you feel a little better. (-:

Nick Gonzalez said...

Hi David Jay. I'm still new here in this forum among so many of your friends you've known for years. But I was moved by the candor and sincerity of your words and was hoping to share my own. In a similar state, I prayed and was blessed with a revelation: a good man's struggle is never easy, but he's earned the struggle because he is a good man. One's conciousness, one's humbleness, one's soul, doesn't erupt in the same way as others. Everyone is different. You were in a funk- I believe- because you are humble; because you have been blessed by God with an enormous heart.

Hanagraphie said...

I wanted to post some words which would give you some comfort but after reading all of the comments here, it seems you have alot of fans (love). In a world where most everyone is out for themselves, it's so great to know there are people out there like you who do care about others...you're such a rare species... ;) Although I don't know you personally, I feel like I certainly am blessed for being able to read, hear, see what your philosopies. Thanks, DJ.

Debbie Garon said...

DJ!!! Guess what! I finally flew on a plane!! It was super scary tho!!

Bill Meyer said...

D.J. my man, wow, what an awesome time we all had hanging out last night just talking about God and photography. I was thoroughly inspired and thrilled to make new friends who share my passion (photography) and my faith!!! I pray that last night lifted you up out of the "funk" if you were still in it... Will talk more later but wanted to write quick... you may make a blogger out of me yet :)

Hey, since you like to go by D.J. I thought maybe I should change my name to B.J. (my dad used to call me that, God rest his soul, in fact, today would have been his 74th birthday... miss ya Dad! but will see you soon in paradise)

Crystal said...

Hey dj,
I finally am catching up with everyone's blog and just caught this entry and got goose bumps. I just text you yesterday about how you had been on my heart and I was praying for you. God is so amazing! (I had no clue!) I skimmed all of the comments and I am so excited for you...you have to feel loved! People from coast to coast are lifting you up in prayer...WOW! What an amazing feeling! Do you know why they do that...not just because it's "good to do" but because you have cared about them somewhere along the line and that makes an impression not only in your mind but most importantly...on our hearts! Keep up the killer work and remember to wait on the Lord, for He will renew your strength..you will mount up with wings like the eagles....Just be still and know He is God.

Sarah Renée said...

I completely agree with what Crystal said :)

Anonymous said...

David, My prayer is that God bless you exceedingly and abundantly for your faith and your deeds. It takes tremendous faith and work to actually do the good deeds of using your talent and sharing what you do with other photographers. I pray that God bless you beyond all you can think or imagine.